So Saturday I spent an amazing day with Justin. He treats me so well, and he really likes me. He has been waiting for me since January when I was still dating Thomas, and he is still waiting me after Thomas and I have been broken up for a month. He is waiting for me to move on and get back on the horse.

My car broke down, so Justin came and got me then he took me down to Sandy Hook where we drove through the flooded streets, and walked the train tracks. It was amazing. Then we went back to his place and goofed off for a while. We ended up just spooning on the couch and had a really deep conversation.

Then JR and Kaitlin picked me up to bring me to the party. I get next to no signal, one bar IF I'M LUCKY where this party is, so the cops busted it before we even got there, but lucky I brought a trunk full of alcohol so we were able to continue on with it when I got there. So around 3:00am amazingly I get a text message, from my ex (It's confusing but I still like him)
Thomas.
-Hey are you ok.

so I go somewhere with signal so I can text them back and they start coming to my phone like no other.

-I m drivin
-Where are you
-Sleep with me
-Come on me please
-Cassey come over
-Cassey please
-Cassey come over...Spend the night.!
-Cassey where are you! Please come over im gettin scared
-Cassey please come over! Please

So I called him, and he was able to talk me into coming over. Since I was in the middle of fucking nowhere it took me a while to get someone to bring me back into town and I couldn't tell anyone where I was going because I was with a bunch of guys who are really protective of me and they hate Thomas because of how much he hurt me. If they knew what was going on. Thomas would have gotten his ass kicked instead.
Sooooo the texts to his house

-Where are you
          - On my way. It took me a few minutes to find someone sober enough to drive me.
-Come over ill be upstairs
          - That's only if I can get them to drop me off at your house.He would kick your ass. He doesn't know where I live so I'm just
              gonna tell him your house is  mine
-Yeah... Oh well don't let them in! Who IS it?
          - Brent and Josh
-Wen you get here lock the door undress come upstairs and mount me
- Get here now!
- I want to try it doggy style... or in the buttox
- Take advantage of me ! Use me
- Ok just get over here and fuck my brains out
          - No doggy style. We tried that once and I didn't like it
- No try it again
           - I don't want to. What has gotten into you. You're never like this.
- A bit of alcohol and a lot of build up
           - build up?
-Yes come in my balls is over flowing and I cum in my sheets daily (Ok I'm not gonna lie. That is too much.)
           - Wow. Ok
- No please just hurry where are you
           - I'm on my way
-Where are you
          - I just got back in town
-Can I stik it in you fine buttocks? You didn't say no to that! I'll suck you dry if you do the same to me. (I did too say no to that)
          - no doggy style
          -I'm going to walk in the door and lock it behind me. Then I'm going to strip the whole way. When I see you I'm going to kiss you
           ever so lightly. I'm going to kiss your neck and then I'm going to touch you, only very lightly. I am going to make you love me and
           I am going to make you hate me. Then I am going to make you beg for it. (I figured I'd play with his head. Drive him crazy)
- Oh my god yes!
- Please cassey where are you
          - gimme 10 min
-5 min or its doggy style
         - ok 5
-be here
          -Well maybe I just won't come at all
-No please cum! Please! Cum all over me! I want your juice to squirt onto me or in my  mouth




lol then I was there





Story summed up. I spend the whole day with a wonderful guy, then with guys who do their best to protect me, but I lie so I can hurt myself. I have people who love me so much and try to protect me from myself and others and I just won't let them. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME?!?!?!