June 11th, 2008
So yeah it's about 3:30 in the morning. I just got home from sleeping with my ex about an hour and a half ago. We've been talking about getting back together, and I thought we still loved eachother so I figured it wasn't a big deal. As soon as we were done he picked up his phone and started texting. When I asked him what he was doing he said he was texting Jennie, that he was having fun flirting with her, and that she said she had wished he had kissed her when they were talking earlier. Jennie works for his mom. She is 16. Thomas is 19. I guess the age thing doesn't so much piss me off as the fact that I'm still in love with him and he says he doesn't want to date me. I just can't sleep. I can get it off my mind. He swears to god he isn't leading me on and that he wants to get back together very soon, but the thing is we never hang out anymore. I almost want to make him fall in love with me just so I can say that I'm not ready to get back with him, then I'll talk about all the guys that like me. How can I do it? Should I set up little dates and stuff for a few weeks then just stop? Make him wonder what happened? I really need to get even with this asshole somehow, or at least make him stop with these games.
